Lately I've been so tired and uninspired. I can't blame anyone except me myself and I. That's not the only thing that has been a 'burden' for me. The world around me is so crazy, since I came back from Indonesia. People who are not responding to my messages, emails you name it. And I'm not talking about random people, the 'real' ones. I have always been the problem solver. When there's a problem, just call me and I will be there, and I'll try to fix it. But I've noticed that they're taking that for granted. Because when you have the power of someones trust, do not take it for granted. Use this trust, to help people better themselves. Despite the fact that I always had that in the back of my mind, I've decided to step back, and cut those people outta my life. At first I thought that it was a good thing, no mo drama no mo pain and no mo bullshit! But then I remembered what my Grandma always said to me: 'You're truly blessed by God, when you show mercy to the people who doesn't deserve it'. How is that possible? How will I do that? Be the better person. It is a process. Go through problems, not around them! You should change your habits and your mind will follow. Don't let your pride get in the way, because 'pride' can be your worst enemy when it comes to making decisions in your life. Don't make the mistake of thinking your rights are the only ones that count.
quote of the day: 'the balance needed for a happy life is illusory' by Yoon Ambush
It's been way too long I tell ya. So it's time to update y'all about my amazing slash weird slash lovely life huh? This will be a quiky tho. Still livin my life, nothing to complain about, busy working, busy having fun and working on my future, with love Miranda
photo: taken @ Kwijt, Sugarfactory Amsterdam http://bamiconnection.com/
So I promised u guys, that I Would update y'all. Sorry I didn't kept my promise, but I was livin' the good life over here. Indonesia is my home, my paradise. Especially Bali, I love love love Bali. I could def live there. Already feelin' sad, just the thought of me leaving my home.. But still one week to shop to enjoy, I feel blessed.
Yesterdaymorning I finally landed in my hometown Jakarta. a.k.a J city a.k.a the city that never sleeps ! I seriously kissed the floor when I walked outta the plane. It feels so good to be home again, the traffic, the food, the hotness, the malls, my family ! I will keep y'all updated. Warning; you might get jealous. With love from Jakarta,
Everybody has their moments, breakdowns, breakups or just tired. Tired of life. I don't want to be the person that complains the whole time, but I have to admit I certainly complain alot. Complaining makes you feel better for a while, but truth is; it won't solve anything! It won't solve your problems. God does. Two sundays ago I went to church with my grandma and sis. And there was a guy around the age of 28 preaching about his life in Congo. He lives there with his wife and kids, to help the people the best they can. He told us how hard life is in Congo, the rebels are taking over the villages, they kill people, they're raping women. Every single day! Everything he told us was so devastating, but their was a message in his story.
Everyday is a struggle for the people in Congo, everyday they lose people they love in their life, but they never doubted the love of God, they keep believing and they keep saying God is good. God has mercy ! Every single day. And we are fighting about the most ignorant things. Think about it, how lame it is.
How good is life here, compared to the people over there? Keep saying that to yourself, before you get mad over a small fight with your boyfriend, keep saying that to yourself!
I think that If you stop struggling, then you stop life. If you learn how to cope, everything will be okay. And when I stand before God at the end of my life, I would hope that I would not have a single bit of talent left, and could say, I used everything you gave me.